today is the 55th i'm here...
a country which only me ...
i never feel so sad before ...never feel sad, alone, homesick...
i never think about who will be missing me there in malaysi...
i though i can live anywhere without anyone since i grow up...
but i'm feel so sad now..after reading a blog...
the blog make me know someone was care about with heart...
55 day i'm in this country which i hav to live and life for 1 year..
but today i'm crying ...
the tear drop is like raining...
cant stop!!!!oh!! mum....
i never know i'll be so sensitive with this..
i though i;m strong enough to face this kind of relationship between human...
missing the crying for long long time ago ...
today, just realize that i still remember how to cry!
All My Frenz Pls Forgive Me...
May be sometime i look like not really care the relationship between us...
i hav my reason, really..
may be sometime i'm too selfish..
may be sometime i'm too protect myself..
may be i hav find myself too many reason to forgive ...
but really i care...
frenz i lov u all....and miss u all so so much...
i;ll be back soon...
在这空间里－眼睛果然得负起很大的责任。。。
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November, 2007
She remembered.
i tot she had forgotten, a friend like me. she remembered. but we cant chat long. gab.. time gab. she said active time between us are different, that's y.
{tis happened b4, without realising, long long ago, with a person. a far far away person. now our distance get even further.} sigh!
time gab.......
how can it be solve except fly to them?
in another way, they fly back to me. but this wun happen after years later.
in memories, we study together, we share happiness and sadness, we share food, we share a bed, even we share a panty. we gossip as well. a lot. yeah a lot. gossips make a big part of our life, we gossip the we got angry with the characters, then we will advice each other. this is the routine in tis 3 years.
until she is gone, to another coutry for further study. i own my life without her, life get boring. i'm always lost in penang since then. i hav no accompany to drive around. phisically and mentally lost. life get dull. ever...
the guy gang had dropped off from my life journey. i think this is the end. their life nv hav my shadow ever. no matter what, i hav to live alone. happily or sadly, of course, i wud want to be happy.
but since my life is so dull, how can i be happy then?
i need to figure out a way, a way to be happy.
i write blogs, i read books, i watch dramas, i go for tennis, i sing... wat else can i do?
recently got addicted to playing tennis, but if i lost interest in it again, wat else can i do?
i'm addicted to writting blog as well, but sumtimes, in sudden, i cant write a word. wat else can i do?
i hardly pick up a book to read, but my eyes get tired very easily. wat else can i do?
my laptop is not with me these days... i cant chat, check mail, blog, watch drama nor listening to music, wat else can i do?
But someone makes me happy today. it's her.
a beep from msn, jus dat simple, to make my day wonderful. coz now i knoe, she still remember me. ;)
Thanks for brightening my day.
Love you as much as that.
_MiantaBuie_
sumtimes, a 'beep' or even a 'are you ok' will cure me from sadness.
so, will you?
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i;ll away remember u...
dun worry...
u remind me so many memories we hav before....
although we in different country now,
but i think our frienship, i'll will keep in heart...
hope u forgive me...
as u know i'm not like to chat in the net for my preview life...
away i like face to face communication....
but now i'm hav to use to it..
start to write blog,
strart to reading other blog,
strat very thing with a BOX which i nt really interest before,
i know this is a way we can keep in touch....
atleast for this moment i need this BOX..
so... i promise i'll away beep u to let u know me are away there...
ok?!!
